quarta-feira, 22 de abril de 2015

a lack of color


"I think the song's title sums up the song 'A Lack of Color'. That on the outside their relationship seems boring, uninteresting, stale and to not be trying too hard. But the character in the song feels that it's really bursting from the seams. He remembers her, thinking of how special that kind of love was. That it didn't need to be showy and colorful. It was true on the inside, a deep unconditional love. The kind of secret beauty to be envious over.

But it was only him that felt this way. She didn't. She left him, and he's desperately trying to figure out why (why this keeps happening). After remembering what their love meant to him, he wants her (that kind of love) back. He calls her and leaves a message. But he knows it's too late. He knows that she didn't feel the same. To her their love was just a lack of color.

After years of repeating this pattern, of others not feeling the same, he realizes that only a colorful relationship will work. One in which the love is on the outside, is shallow, where rather than absorbing all the colors of the spectrum, they only reflect color, and have no value on the inside. Obviously, that silent sweet love isn't enough for anyone else, he thinks. Hence, "I should have given you a reason to stay."

"This is fact not fiction, for the first time in years." This is his resolution to the issue.
The fiction was his fantasy of true love.
The fact is that they leave you if you lack visible color.

He realizes that the kind of purely abstract love he wants is unrealistic.
He's no longer living in fantasy. Through the trauma, he's learnt a lesson.
Now that he's not pursuing a path that's doomed to always fail (and get him
hurt), he is now wiser. He's not going to turn anyone around from being
upside-down to fit what he wants love to be.
In future, he'll come closer than he ever could before to that kind of abstract love!
No more will there be a lack of color here."

terça-feira, 14 de abril de 2015

collecting lyrics of a failure






















I know it's not a fair assessment
but I can't be asked to wrestle with the colors of
who you've now become
you and I, we're not the same
and neither can be held to blame
it's just the way the story has to end

being here and being there
there's no space for being where I feel I should be
loneliness is like a drink
think you're on the verge of sinking when you tame the sea

interims are good for suckers feeling like they're down on luck
and I'm not going to drown in my own tears
I can't ask you anymore to be someone that I adore
only when the time is right for me

so let's just be


shut up and go to bed
put the pillow under your head
I'm sick and tired of all your worries
shut up and say goodnight
say your prayers and turn off the light
I'm sick and tired of all your sob-stories

shut up and shut your eyes
no more histrionics, no more college tries
stop pushing, stop shoving, stop straining
shut your mouth and button your lip
you're a late night faucet that's gotta drip
all you're doing is merely complaining

the excuse that you're crazy is useless
you're not biting you're barking you're toothless
but you're ruthless

shut up and count some sheep
and do me a favor, don't bitch in your sleep
no more agony, please no more sorrow
shut up and catch some zs
ice cream with a cherry plus a big pretty please
I promise we'll resume tomorrow



I need to walk by the flowers
with someone who can share my face
and it looks like no one can take your place
and I could bleed in sympathy with you
on those days
and I could drink up everything you have
don't let it go to waste

say something warm, say something nice
I can't stand to see you when you're cold
nor can I stand being out of your life
and I could bleed in sympathy with you
on those days
and I could drink up everything you have

don't let our youth go to waste

"make a little effort and take care of me, and live our youth together, I think the writer tries to say. I love the way he expresses how most couples who are on and off when they are young end up being together some years later, when they understand they are accustomed to each other, but their youth, the years they could have enjoyed together are gone."



I've been out walking
I don't do that much talking these days
these days
these days I seem to think a lot
about the things that I forgot to do
and all the times I had the chance to

and I had a lover
I don't think I'd risk another these days
these days
now if I seem to be afraid
to live the life that I have made in song
it's just that I've been losing so long

well I'll keep on moving, moving on
things are bound to be improving
these days
one of these days

these days I'll sit on cornerstones
and count the time in quarter tones to 10
my friend
don't confront me with my failures
I had not forgotten them



I'm not being smart
or trying to be cold on my part
and I'm not gonna wear my heart on my sleeve
but you know people get all emotional
and sometimes, man, they just don't act rational
they think they're just on tv

love has gone away
and there's no one here now
and there's nothing left to say
but, oh, how I miss him, baby
oh, baby, come on and slip away
come on, baby, why don't you slip away

love is gone away
took the rings off my fingers
and there's nothing left to say
but, oh how, oh how I need him, baby
come on, baby, I need you baby
oh, please don't slip away
I need your loving so bad, babe
please don't slip away

domingo, 12 de abril de 2015

how dearly and candidly I wanted to love
how painfully I failed

times when the greatness of life is too much for a weak heart

quarta-feira, 8 de abril de 2015

when this giant rock stops pressing my
feelings against the wall
will you let me breathe again
love

to love again
to live